happy Christmas eve!

i'm feeling slightly overwhelmed at the moment, given the amount of people who've just left our space and the fact that Christmas is upon us. the Holidays, as I was discussing with a friend, are different, not just because I am an "adult" (i use that term loosely), but also because my parents are divorced and there are now stepfamilies involved. being single adds to the disconnected feeling i have.

i've been reading through the Gospels, along with the Psalms during this season, and it's been a good reminder of the goodness of God in His gift to us, as well as the very present-ness of Him. "Emmanuel" has become a truth I cling to when the days around me seem the darkest.

i am grateful to have some time off, but my body and my mind are all crying for rest, especially rest in the Lord, which seems so abstract sometimes, but usually looks like me retreating into silent spaces and allowing my battle-weary mind to rest. perhaps i should do that now.....